Christ has risen, truly he has risen. This phrase was a constant during the final pascha services. I did not bring the kiddos to the service even though others did. In the end I found I had made the right choice since sleep after a certain time in the evening is no longer an option for me if I skip it past my bed time. Next year I will be better prepared for this as well. I think personally the service for the littles is way to long and I agree with some of the other members that it is something to be worked into. I will take them to the first part next year and then have them taken home and put to bed.
It was an experience how ever to participate. It was the trinity on a whole new level that I had never experienced before. It was literally a celebration of both Christs life, crucifixion, and his resurrection. It was one of the most beautiful services I have ever seen. It is a very hands on and lots of chanting and singing but its not just about that either. It was beautiful and peaceful, it brought me back to the whole reason I wanted to be an end of life midwife.
I know to the normal and daily observer of life it is what it is. Most people cant bring themselves to think about the end of things but Pascha is very much about the end and the beginning of the end as well as it is about the trinity. I found out later that they do a special service for the dead after they pass. To a non orthodox member it would seem morbid but to me I love the beautiful memorial services. I hope one day to be able to hold a memorial service for my Paro Papu and Paro Yai Yia. There kids should have done it but did not. Well, at least as far as I know.
Here we are the last week of Pascha and incidentally the hardest week to fast. I however have a plan for next year and I think I will try an execute it little by little through out the rest of the year. I have been studying different types of diets and such because a lot of people don’t do the fast if they have certain medical issues like diabetes an intolerance to gluten. I watched a documentary a while a go where this man who was over wait wanted to cut meat and processed sugars and other foods out of his diet including fish and dairy. I am going do some research through out this year to see what grains and beans I can use to replace some of those meat proteins that we need. The food has to be tasty and it has to fallow guidelines of Pascha and lent season.
I know that if correctly planned as well I could hopefully make more of the daily services for the season as well. This week was the hardest because I have little ones who do not behave in weekly church so you can imagine me not wanting that stress daily. I need a break from chasing them around particularly my daughter who is three years old and has Downs Syndrome. She is cognitively behind about 6 months the average 3 and a half year old.
I have really like the evening services so far. I have only been to the daily Sunday services during the day. I really love greeting the new day in the evening. Liturgy is nice too but I like all the lit candles and the chants for those services. I wish I could be a chanter. I would like to be in the choir when my daughter is a bit older and behaves better.
We shall see what tonight and Saturday nights is like because I will be attending those and then my hubby said he was going to attend church on Sunday with us. I am super grateful for his support on this journey.
I have gained a lot from participating as much as I could. I have learned about forgiveness and sacrifice. It has most definitely changed my perspective of God and Christ. I have even got my oldest into praying at night before bed.
I don’t know how Jesus did it but all I can say is, that its harder than it looks. Well maybe back in Jesus time it was easier because he did not have all that much of a diet to begin with. Also, he was going to die for us and he knew this right from the get go from how I understand it.
I did manage to keep from eating all meat except fish for the most part. I accidentally ate it in a garden salad and one other item (cant quite remember what it was right now). I have stayed away from olive oil and wine was harder than I thought. I did figure out why. When you don’t want something the devil wants you to want it more. Or you just want it more because we are human and not perfect and that is what we do.
I did learn that my hubby likes to also want me to want the things I shouldn’t have more. More or less to see how into this religion I am. He said he would do Holy Week and we will be doing it because I am preparing some vegan dishes for us to eat for that whole week. He wont have a choice because I am only cooking for Holy Week and God and the famn damly is just going to have to suck it up. Its hard to cook two types of food for a family. Not only that it costs even more money. We will be having chilly, potatoes of all sorts and types, beans and pasta. I am going make sure to have some snacks as well just to help curb the hungers in between meals.
I have spent less time on the social media and more time at church. I am hoping to be baptized by the end of the summer. I have really been enjoying church and so have the kids. I think the hardest part is picking out a god parent(s). Its hard because their are a lot of good candidates but you have to pick the right ones and they have to be in good standing with the church, and a few other things. So here is to getting through the rest of Pascha.